Earlier today I spent some time shopping online for a particular expensive fragrant candle that used to be a favorite of mine. I had forgotten all about this brand and when I remembered it I jumped online to look for it.
Shopping for expensive candles this morning was kind of an odd behavior that I really can't explain considering that I lost my sense of smell (anosmia) in 2009 and can't smell a single thing. It's almost like I forget that I can't smell...and it's always quite the shock to the system when the realization hits that I will never smell anything ever again.
Seventeen years later and it seems that I still haven't accepted that.
Needless to say, I didn't buy any of the expensive candles this morning. I exited the candle website and then cried a little bit in that weird grief way that happens whenever I remember I can't smell anything anymore. Which happens frequently. Like, every single day.
I'll still buy candles, though, because I love them...but I'll have to stick with buying the cheap ones or the ones that are on clearance. š
Loss of smell has changed my life in more ways that I can express; it's kind of like going from a full color life to one that is black and white.
Please do not take your ability to smell for granted.
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